27.3.07
from the case file of enjia's lifeACJC CONCERT ONLY HAS $17 TICKETS LEFT!!if you want $21 tickets,please go to sistic website to purchase.you can only do so three days prior to concert,which is friday.
i've been stoning alot these few days.was stoning the day away.haven't toned in a long long long time.befre recently that is..
tosca T2T2T2!!!! drLee's a genius! >.<
band was not so strenous today.unike ytd,where we went through the concert repertoire in our sectionals and had to play the second half down in a room which was heating up due to lack of aircon and exertion.today's practice was not that bad,but we still have lots to work on.i have alot alot to work on.i fear the uncertainties.....
fear is not a good thing sometimes.
it leads to uncertainty and insecurity.
i'm still tired.still very tired.
don't worry.i won't give up till i drop.
Labels: $17 tickets, band, tosca
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24.3.07
from the case file of enjia's lifesyf auditions on the 13th April.will i make it? tosca shepherd's call is not well played all except one of all times,feste romane horn's melody lines am not able to play well,i can't play all the really important parts well.
my stamina is so low,so much so that i cannot sustain through the pieces,through tosca,is already dead and out of breath,through march is already trying to survive,through pantom after that is dead already by the end.
my tuning is inconsistent,always nearly there,but slightly sharp or slightly flat fluctuatingly,rarely do i manage to hold a constant note.
this morning i went t school 1hr early to go to the rooftop garden to practice so that i may develope my volume better in an open space.however,when i asked sean,jefri,huiling they all if they heard a horn while they walking into school,all didnt.was also practicing with a mute yesterday,from aft e mbti thingy to ard 6 plus,trying to play forte through for roman feste and all parts w loud parts.and the result?still a sucky soft and thin tone.
sitting on the right of sean during march is depressing.i can hear that he's loud and his tone is not that thin,so much so that when he stops playing in the middle of a horn part,you can so obviously hear that someone has stopped even if you're not looking.he's so loud that i can't even hear myself.and when he stops,the thin sound will emerge from my horn.
tosca G# B-B is also very thin,the low b's tone just does not match up to the G# and high B's tone.how can i improve?in what way can i improve.
i've been trying really hard to use my diaphragm and use loads and loads of air,so much that i become breathless really fast,but my tone's still thin and rubbishy.
been playing to much highnotes that i cannot reach well and sitting much too straight while doing so.dont know if it's true,but my back hurts when i'm trying to play march's FA CFA CFA the high range,and plus i've been practicing that the whole week,without much progress,plau yesterday's sleeping in the wrong position in the qm room,plus today's practice,it really hurts..
very hard to fall asleep too.when i'm trying to fall asleep,when it's very quiet,the music of band will just play in my head and the fingerings play in my head,my fingers unawaringly will finger it out.if it's noisy ad i listen to the music from my phone,then same things occur...i guess that it's good since it's never happened to me before previously..
colonial,horn's nicest part,from beat 4 bar 36 to bar 42 beat 2 is super nice,but once again,i'm not able to play it well.high high Bb...stopped notes originally play one semitone down,but unfortuntely we're all super sharp on the stopped notes,so we cn play a tone down and sound correct. >.<
march is tiring! ...
tosca...J's syncopated rhythm we're trying our best to play out,p's agitato's _23_23_23_23 we're also working on it,trying very very hard not to play __31_31_31_31_31_31_31 like the tuba.even if we wanna start corrct,but being influenced by others who ma or may not be aware of themselves playing the wrong rhythm,we'll still be unable to play the correct rhythm.though we feel that we're correct,but we're definitely wrong,as can be seen by the linking to the 123123 rhythm in 273.i'm worried bout I's horn and piccolo solo too.it's thin and and just not there.i dont know what the problem is,but it's just not there.the notes are there,rhythms are there,but something is missing.so missing that it feels really empty.
i was talking to hope on friday and we were both mooning about missing practices(she's choir) and there being really bored without practices ad thing is i've jut had practice the day before and she had 2 days before.i think band's so large part of my life that without band for a day,i feell really uneasy.without band for a week,i feel really out of time,dont know when is when,lost and dont know what to do.though band is hectic and most people who hear about my schedule say : "siao arh?!", it's really something i cannot do without.the last year of sec sch,i was banned from band by my parents,i felt really restless and un-me.
i really have to thank ms sng and dr lee for taking me in from my appeal in to acjc.i've been aiming to go to acjc and join the band since quite some years ago,but some how half way through,in sec 4,i lost sight of this aim and didn't have a goal to work towards.or rather i lost it though it was there.the drift away from band made me lose sight of it,resulting in poor results that did not allow me to go acjc.not that it was totally the drift away from band that caused it totally.most was my own fault for not being clear about wht i want,for not working,for not being firm in my resolutions.thank you alot to ms sng and dr lee for taking me in.thankyou ms sng for taking me in though i told you that it was because i did not study that i got such ridiculous results,thank you dr lee for taking me in though i was not up to the prefered standard,still trying to retrieve what i lost from a year's lack of practice..really thank you alot.
thank you also to my ac band mates,j1s or j2s,thank you for helping me adjust into my new class.though you may not be aware of it,but ya,you all did help.i don't really know anyone in the new class,there's three other band ppl(liling,hanliang,zhanwei) who i know and there's carol. >.< however,in a class of 23 now 26 where seemingly everyone knows everyone and i know little,it's really hard to not to blend into the background nd stay there.hanging around with the band people during breaks for the past week has made me realised that i've not been trying to blend in to the class instead of the background,made me have the courage to go and blend out of the background.
i've been blending into the background so much in my whole life from themoment i associate wit people,een with my relatives, that now i'm trying to blend out of it,it's difficult.among al my cousins,sisters and i,the relatives always prefer to talk to and associate with the rest.i've been told by some junoirs that i look scary(why arh?),maybe that's why,but maybe it's just myself telling myself that i don't want to blend out,don't want to talk to others,don't want to associate with others.till now,i'm still thinking this subconciously alot of the times.but i want to blend out.i really want to.but it's difficult.i shall still try to blend out.why can i blend into the background so well,so much that i don't feel for much,but not blend so well into the band,which i really feel so much,so much for?
sleep is not able to refresh me at all anymore except once or twice in the a week.appetite's been shrinking.hope i'm not getting sick soon.if i should get sick,let it be after auditions and let me recover fast.i'm not looking forward to faling sick anymore.maybe i will be aft experencing pe again.... let not me fall sick at this important point of time,at any important point of life.at any moment i really want to appreciate,to experience,to feel.
i'm tired.real tired.
i'm an ISFP by the way.the only ISFP in 1st intake arts ppl. =.= anyone else's an ISFP?
Labels: band, ISFP, music, syf auditions
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10.3.07
from the case file of enjia's lifeand before i forget again.
ACJC MUSE
date : 1st April 2007 Sunday (not a joke)
time : 7.30 pm
venue : Esplanade Concert Hall
price : $21 or $25
acjc students can pay by edusave.
playing :
Phantom of the Opera
March ~from symphonic metamorphosis~
Festive Overture
Feste Romane
Colonial Song
Tosca ~from the third Act~
please do come and support us.and please reply to me asap if you want the tickets.you can email me
or sms me if you have my number.please come support!Labels: 1st, acjc, April, colonial, concert, email, esplanade, feste romane, festive, joke, march, metamorphosis, muse, phantom, price, Sunday, support, symphonic, tosca
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from the case file of enjia's life
wooh!!!
life is good to me. shall start from where it all started...
TUESDAY 6/3
woke up at 7.55 to switch on the computer to check the results of posting.says there jurong junior college.wasn't fully awake yet,so was just thinking - okae.i've been posted to jj.then went to school with eileen to appeal..was still half asleep,so just went through the process of appealing.
eileen,liyun,engloong,stuart,satish,wilson,hanliang and i went to vivo to walk walk talk talk eat eat till time for band and we met up w sheree,braynt and huiling there.we slacked and loitered ard vivo..we went to the roof top whatever its caled and 'sailed' a bowl and a boat and so on and so forth.food republic food is expensive and not that nice.tn..
ya.we went back to school for band,had ice pops,set up the stage and etc..then was combine.combine was quite tiring cos was out the whole day plus wake up so freaking early and slept late the night before... z.z desperately trying to focus..
the sad thing was when i went home,was on the bus 947,i was quite bored,so i whipped out my phone and started to listen to......(stupidly)...... TOSCA.was so tragic tt it nearly made me cry on the bus...
WEDNESDAY 7/3
had to report to jj and i didn't know how to go there,so my mum offered to send me there.actually she offered me on tues,i refused,but asked on wednesday cos was super tired.we left the house at 6.20,thinking thered be a jam,but reached jj at 6.30.so....as orienttion starts at 7,i had to sit there and stone and stone and continue stoning.don't really recall much about the morning cos 1) i wasn't fully awake, 2) i was very upset, 3) was desperately hoping tht the appeal people would call me asap, 4) slept through the talks which amount up to around half the day.
lester was also there,so i ased him to call me if he was going off for sectionals and smart person actually came up with a super good excuse for leaving jj at around 2 plus 3.excuse is...... : "i'm sorry,i have to go to acjc to appeal." so true so true.and so,with that,we 'safely' escaped from jjc.and 198-ed to acjc for sectionals.
when i reached qm rm and saw ms sng at the windows,i was like -shoots-.scarly she find out i pon jj orientation or sth like that and i die how...? and so was trying to be adiscreetap..
setionals was more of self prac since dominic wanted to see us play individually away from te section.evelyn went out and came back crying...
and so,aft one and a half day of endurance,i see evelyn cry ended up was also crying.cos it was really freaking sad.havent gotten the call,may have to go back to jj and jj had freaking orientation camp from thursday to saturday aft,meaning if i have t stay in jj,i wouldn't be able to come for combine and be late for sat combine.
and so i was crying and stopping and crying and stopping in between playing.
aft sectionals ended,we went down t e corridor beside lvl3 lift lobby to self prac summore,then gladys,evelyn and i were tuning and long toning etc..was still very upset,but calmed down le..
aft ard 1 hr 2,shaheera suddenly screamed and ran around and was wondering wht happened,then saw her face and know tt she got THE call le.we were all congratulating her as she cried.then suddenly my phone was vibrating and i tought it was an sms cos the whole day keep having sms coming in,resulting in it being very much like calls,but when i took it out,i saw some strange number and i was super excited and calmed down and picked the call up...
after i hung up it was like all the pressure inside escaped and eera and i were screaming and running around and jumping around like mad,which i think we were...
it's been a long time since i cried so much that i couldn't breathe and it's a good feeling,really good.for once in so so so long,i'm actually wide awake,so clear of what's going on and so alive.
still rmb weiting hid yingda's bag in the eupho's sectionals room and we hid his pencil case in the ac panel. XDDD yingda! open your eyes! XDD
bryant and i were playing with the projector,computer and sound systm in lt4,plying music and tosca(no more crying!) through the phone through the mic...
saw justin on the way out from school.he hadn't gotten the call yet.
was freaking tired while going home and was falling asleep on the bus. >.<
THURSDAY 8/3
reported to acjc!
hao weiyi and i duno who else was there.
at 9,all the bnd appeal ppl went to the hub to get the memorandum.and the sad thing isss...... it's not signed.
we were stoning in the canteen for v long like 1 2 hrs i wait for the memorandum t b signed...well,to be honest,i was super worried cos on weds night,i was happily preparing to tear all the jj papers up and my father refused to let me tear : "what if sth happens and ac kicks you out?" oh well.
saw mrs chang early in the morning and told her that eera and i appeal successful.she was super happy for us,but she was very "heartbroken"(qouted) tt justin was not called yet.cos she saw justin on wednesday.
and so,we got the memo,198-ed to jj,walked in ad handed it up,got it signed,and 198-ed back to ac!wooh! submitted to chris,took and subject reg form and since e mep teachers not there yet,need t get them to sign,so decided to go back later.
its so good to be back in acjc,with the og,the additions to the og and all..the random games and slackings though not supposed to. XDD
mass rally ard 4,em and i screamed our clash chords and we left ard 4.30 for band,which actually starts at 6,went to change,clean up..
emily,jefri and i went to dover market to eat,et quite some band ppl there. >.<
and back t school for combine.once again,i was very tired cos couldn't sleep early and woke up realy early and ya.basicall the same thing.was forcing myself to focus.haha,i can do TAtaka taTAka tataKA but i can't do taTAka tataKA taTAka.. T.T will work on it. -determined look-
FRIDAY 9/3
wooh! ACJC here i come again.
haha the games were the same as before,but still fun. XD
we massed danced most f the time away.
wooh fast forward to mass rally.clash chord again.really successful. XD but must conserve. xD
had og lunch-ner at swensens holland v.played some game with ice cream,figured out the bang bang game,the traveling game,the light game etc random stuff. went back to school was still early,so we got gill to teach us the 2006 orientation dance.haha.crash courses are not effective man..
campfireee. XD
the fire was really beautiful,the cinders and flame,the flaming "AC" etc.
was a peaceful campfire compared to orientation one,but it's still a fun campfire.
we had fun clash chording and cheering singing t the top of our voices,making lotsa noise,mass dancing.
claire,hao,weiyi,dora and i duno who else was there,but richie got in! =D all the best for the rest of you ya! and so,claire grabbed me and made me do the snkey thingy. xd once is enough,will never try it again. XD
was very tired and exhausted,went back with suiying,emily and benjamin.and we were random etc..
and TODAY 10/3 was a v tirin,but fufiling day.
combine at acs(i). we went t get our uniform tailored in sch.haha.i was sitting there extra while em was taking down the measurements and we found out tt some guys the measurements got less numbera than the rest and we asked the uncle if he missed out anything.uncle said sth along the line of : "they too flat,so dont need to take so many." XDD the way uncle say super funny.
haha.we prank called gladys heng nearly 50 times and we carried on to MSG gladys. XDDD haha.horns,you know what i mean! XDDD and we went to holland v nydc cos suying msged us t go there for brunch,but it wasnt open,so we thought they playuing ard w us and thus went to bk to eat.haha.turns out ther also didnt know nydc not open,so we all ended up in bk for brunch.
wet back t acj,rushed to get the stuff over to acs(i).al horns with cases and black stand too.
combine at acs(i) was quite fun.met genevieve there.she's so poor thing...one of the very few girls there in acs(ib) band... >.<
and on and on and on.
then the debriefing in the lt,the J3s came back and gave us some prep talks.crystal was telling us about her 'life story',how band affected her,thow also,but not from a diary,qinyi and ruth too and eunarco too.ms sng had her turn,the yingda,samuel ho and zhenrong had their turn.
we rushed back to acj cos was quite late le and the church ppl waned t use lt 4,so we hd t clear out of it.. and so rush rush rush,got locked out of the bcak gate.... haha.got in in the end.
went for dinner w some band ppl at bk holland v(again. XD).
its al been tiring and exhaustive days,but i love it.and my voice has changed due to the clash chords during orientation.do not be alarmed if you hear a 'stranger' calling you or when you call me. XDDD let's just hope it recovers soon..really uncomfortable...
alycia,thiam looh,claire,justin,weiyi,dora,and any one else who i may have missed in this sectence,all the best for your appeal and take loads of care!
i resolve to study hard and play hard in band too.i will NOT be like what i was in secondary school,only able to focus on one per time.i want to do this.i will do this.
thank you to gladys and anyone else who encouraged me when i was upset over the posting results and when i was waiting for the appeal results so worryingly.(yes gladys,stop letting it get into your head and grow so big its on the brink of bursting.)thank you all for everything these few days,thank you for the care and concern showered,thank you for you,thank you to the people who supported me physically,emotionally and mentally and most of all...,
THANK YOU DR LEE AND MS SNG for accepting me into acjc.Labels: appeal, band, combine
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